Tuesday, April 01, 2008
super tired.i tink i nid to use gou yok for my shoulder..
it's aching like mad.
i met chris for dinner aft my dental.
went to her office & find her.
im noe im veri hardworking =D
miss chirs, there are times whereby we need to be firm?
so tt ppl will not take advantage of us.
ya?
we had sticky rice.
n started 2 think back when is the first time we had it..
wat exactly did we eat..
n yep managed to recall..
n we told ourselves we gonna bring claire along...
so all of us fall in love with sticky rice.
it became our weekly rountine on fri..
to meet for dinner
then to arcade..
life was simply
but i enjoy it..
though i wan not veri active :P
i missed those days.. but miss claire onli knocked off at 930 now..
which seems almost impossbile for us to hav tis kinda of life
)=
was reading up BGR via various forum...
realise tt the ladies in tis century is behaving more & more like a guy ?
erm meaning guys are more dependent to their gf & 'stick' to them..
for me, im not really sticky n i don lyk sticky guys..
for ppl who know me well, they will noe tt i love to spend my time going out wif friends..
n i enjoyed the company of my friends..
not tt i don enjoyed the company of my bf's...
jus tt i love crowd..
some times things get bored if its jus the 2 of u ...
as i grow, i realise i miss out a lot of spending quality time wif my bf..
i spend quality time wif my friends...
n quantity time wif bf..
doing things together is a veri good bonding..
which i negelcted..
i was too self-centered, selfish, only think for myself, nvr spare a tot towards others.. (mayb to friends, its not tt bad, but towards bf, im a lousy gf!)
when im alone, i tink a lot..
i guess tt applies to a lot of ppl?
i tink thru my past action or attitude towards ppl..
it might hav been bad.. n yep...
at least i bother to do reflection :P
somtimes i can be so happy go lucky
but somtimes i jus take things too hard..
makin life misearble for myself..
i often questioned myself.. why?
i don noe.
n i seriously tink i hate to be alone
i cannot be left alone..
but i noe i nid to learn to be left on my own
im stil trying aft so long..
when i used to hav a room of my own, i can stayed there for the whole day..
mayb rite now, my room = living room = lots of ppl thus no more privacy...
anyway if my sis & nephews were to move out now, i will be the only target for my mum :(
i told chris tt.. n she asked if i hav any zi bi zheng :\
im so talkative.. how zi bi can i be..
on ya.. she said sesame shld probably buy me a big soft toy to keep me company..
i can tok to tt soft toy as well..
i used to hav a huge piyo piyo..
a yellow duck or bird if u don noe..
i even named it..
haa ok im silly!
i talked to it.. n it wil sleep by my side..
but hello.. do i really hav to resort to tt?
im 22 tis yr..
not 14.. haaaaaa!!
but tt doesnt matter i guess..
i jus feel so empty at times..
chris said cos i used to noe som1 is there for me..
n she said i've them!
awww so sweet ^-^
i know.. time is the key..
i need time...
yesh aft so long... i still need time..
ptl, hope u're feeling beta..
when i used to be attached, i whined to my bf when i got cramps..
though he cant make me feel beta cos he's a doc...
but little actions warms my heart n cheer me up.
tis applies to almost all the girls, ya?
like JY... she looks super xin fu when she mentioned her bf..
xin fu xiao nu ren!!!!
im xin fu too.
cos i can eat & sleep well.
:P
blogging certainly makes me feel beta.
love, thanks for the msg!
i will sleep well tonight!
=D
nitez.
all i wanna do is find a way back into love 11:18:00 PM