Friday, December 09, 2005
can't get 2 sleepp... argh.. becoming more & more like panda alreadi...tution, work & work... lol lyk so sian... hmm at least i still meet up wif friends to go out together... phew... i don noe wat rubbish im writing as wel... was talking to cheryl on the fone jus now... we talked abt secondary school days... mostly abt me... haaa & my ex... lol
com to tink of it now... i don understand y i wld cry when i was ditch.. too sad? n i can cry for months... my results suffered and i can't get into the poly which i desired... life is short.. so we gonna make full use of it... since now im in RP, i shall make good use of it... study :)
glad tt i meet quite a no of ppl there.... n glad tt i hav my bear by my side.... wat matters most now wld b him.. :)
jas, claire, candy, wei jie, kin chong, inah, nicole.. haaa yr 2 sem 2 frends were nice as well. :)
hmmm... cant believe tt i will b 20 next yr... n cant believe tt my grandpa has left us... its has been a month now... time flies.... i jus cant figure out why.... he left so sudden... though he might b enjoying at som place which is far away from me.. he might b suffering if he is stil alive... wif all the needles and medicines.... n i wonder wat his illness was... tts doc sae it's cancer... but doc who wrote the death cert said it was heart attack...
wateva it is, i miss him.. i realli do... perhaps its becos im more sensible now... he's the onli grandparent who wil chat wif me.. ask me ques... if not for him, i don noe where wld i be....
:) miss ya, ah gong...
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