Friday, May 28, 2004
i dressed up so nicely today... even wear skirt 2 sch... haiz.. initially was so excited to go meet up with my 5a pals... who knows qi go n ask tt banana along... n y is he so thick skinned to agree to go... frends in my gang doesn't like him... y can he stil go under such circumstances... if for me, i wouldn't go at all !! i noe he miss e klass alot, but e fact is we dun miss him!! haiz... i dun wanna face him either..... even thought i got to do it one day.... i wish i can jus run away from it... i dun wan 2 see him... up till now, i havent even go 2 check up on his friendster to c his new babe pic.... i dun noe why.... huisia, y r u such a .....?? i jus dun wan to face it... i jus wan to run away frm it..
so i shld jus go as usual?? lyk wat hong seng says, he shld b afraid of me n not me afraid of him.... i wish i cld... i wish i cld stil joke wif them lyk we r gd friends... i jus couldn't bring myself to do it... i nvr lyk meet up wif my ex after the break up.... well dere's always a exceptional case... e onli ex who i met up wif n who cares for me is onli froggie... mayb lyk wat he says, i m immature... well.. wat to do.. i dun wanna grow up either.... i wil hav to be troubled over alot of matters...
how i wish i can b a kid again.. it's basically studying and playing and nothing else!!! a moment i find it so nice to fall in love and being loved..... e next moment i jus find it's all rubbish n nothing else!! =(
all i wanna do is find a way back into love 10:39:00 AM